My Christmas Tree Collection In Sibu

Sibu has always been well-known for its high density in its Christian Population among the society. Below is a collection of Sibu's Christmas photo that I had taken around parkson.

Sadly to say, this tree is taken in the biggest shopping centre in Sibu. Yup, this shopping centre has only one rectangular atrium.

One of the uniqueness in Sibu is the caroling parade. Lots of people + little decorative vans.

Warm, and also touching as they have their caroling under bad weather conditions

Sibu doesn't really snow, but Sibu people love Christmas Tree.

A symbol of love? or a symbol of status?

I remain silent

Yea, my final finale, Rm8000 to invest on a Christmas tree is so impressive.

This tree belongs to my granduncle who gives this tree as a gift to his daughter who is going to get married.

Isn't it wonderful?

Although I know it is a little bit late, still, Merry Christmas and Happy new year. If you remain a youthful heart every day, I believe everyday is a warm Christmas Day.

Looking into Kira

I had just finished a "queeky" quiz to test my personalities. It is quite fun though.

below is my result:
The choleric-sanguine is a blending of the two extroverted temperaments and will be somewhat less extraverted than the sanguine-choleric, because the choleric’s extraversion often takes a back-seat to his goal-oriented behavior. Nonetheless, this temperament combination is second only to the sanguine-choleric in terms of being outgoing and people-oriented. This temperament mix tends to give rise to an enthusiastic, motivational, and highly driven leader (choleric) whose social skills and interest in other people (sanguine nature) make him less dictatorial and capable of some flexibility. He will value relationships more than a pure choleric, and will show greater compassion in dealing with people, will be less controlling than the pure choleric, and will be more willing to take time out to relax and enjoy himself.

If you are a choleric-sanguine, you will find that you have a great amount of energy and inspiration for initiating projects and can be highly focused on task completion as well. Although you tend to be very objective, pragmatic, and logical -- and may sometimes find yourself stepping on toes in the process of accomplishing the task at hand -- you will also have the interpersonal skills needed to resolve conflict and to help people work together and get along with one another. The creativity and sensitivity of your sanguine nature will enable you to be flexible when the situation calls for it, and less demanding and harsh than a pure choleric would tend to be. You are likely an energetic leader or manager, with superb debating skills: firmly convinced that you are right, you also have the “people-skills” necessary to convince others as well!

Without strong formation and a deep spiritual life, however, your temperament’s weaknesses will be intensified. Without attention to self-formation you may find yourself quickly aroused to anger, yet also unforgiving. You can be impatient with others and overly opinionated. You may speak frankly or impulsively without regard for others’ feelings. You should take care that you become neither a workaholic nor driven by your passions. You may insist on having your own way, and become angered, blame others, or make excuses when corrected. But, once you become aware of the weaknesses of your nature, and make a commitment to self-improvement, you will be able to be equally determined in pursuing self-formation.

I think is ok la, that just sounds so contradicting. May be kira is always contradicting himself that makes him unique and weird

A new Insight

I just realize something new... ... I can't stand apathy... ... NONE. I just can't stand.

Somebody nearly drives me crazy today by nearly fulfilling the checklist that I abhor most. By saying these 3 things to me, out of any reasons, I will take it seriously and you will surely be blacklisted by me.

1. "Who cares you?" when I am offering something or opinion. I am not sure who likes to say this thing to me, I was so angry until I smashed my handphone. I am from e-generation but that phrase just sounds so annoying!

2. "such a shit/ rubbish" when I am sharing my ideas or experiences! Are you looking my life down or something? I know I worth nothing, but do respect me! Don't like my stories, just say you don't like, don't use rubbish or shit.

3. "Shut up" whenever I am talking. That's just so wrong for me! May be sometimes it is ok to tell them to shut up. But some people misuse this word and overly use it in their daily life which pissed me off so much. I haven't complete a sentence and then this phrase will just come out of his mouth... ...

There are other things which I, until now, just realize that I can't really "tahan".

I can't stand people who are damn arrogance and ignorance. They just do their things and talk to others without even bothering me. Am I invisible? I come all the long way just to talk to him but he is just focusing on the other people. Sms without replying or without replying phone call is just so rude... ... especially those message contains question or chit chatting... ... Without finding an excuse to stop the conversation is even more rude. That's just not ethical. :p

The second type is those people who can walk pass me and say hi to people behind me without noticing me, (Hello? I know who are you! I know your name, how can't you see me?" especially that XXXXXX which is super annoying whenever he just say hi to lawrence behind me, while i left my hand hanging in the air awkwardly... ...

I guess that's why I am so crazy in Intec: to grab the attention that I had long seek for. I want to get notice by people, despite good or bad. Although I am being regard as Gay, that doesn't matter anymore to me. As long as I can get those attention to compensate the attention that I had lost from him, things doesn't really matter if I am lady gaga or mr evil or super crazy psycho... ...

I am not sure when did I find that out, I know that I do have some minor changes in me myself since that day, the day when he stepped into the plkn bus, the moment when I blamed him for his annoying existance; I had changed. Everything just doesn't seem to be normal now... ...

I think I really need some help now... ... depressing... ... I must really know where the bottom line is, or I will be in a serious situation now.

LOU. what's the point?

yup, that's my new phrase that I had learnt during my 3rd advance composition class taught by Ms Nadiah. I had no idea what I should write now, but IT seems that a strong desire of writing a blog has make this whole thing into an obligation of my life. (I guess?)

I can't actually picture lots of things now due to my messy time schedule. I am now actively involved in ATUSA's AIF things (American Indulgence Fiesta). Ya, secret's revealed, and I am going to present something special during that night, and I can't wait to enjoy the sheer pleasure of having fun in American's activities.

If it is American Indulgence Week, why no champagne? Probably no stripper too!!

I guess what makes me very uncomfortable is actually our LOU and JPa session (ADFP version). I guess going to the states isn't that easy, and definitely not enjoyable too. they kept implying that having an education in the states is quite dangerous, and we need to have a lot of preparation before we "fly".

The problem is, am I ready?

I am not a strong-hearted person, I am not a charismatic speaker good in communication skills, and I am definitely not a physically strong boy, nor mentally, I anticipate for the best, and for the worst. For the best, I can get my very own freshman experience in the Ivies; for the worst, I wish to find cockroaches less than 3 in Kolej cemara. AND GET USED TO IT.

I am not prepared yet, from what I can feel. The problem is, I haven't have my very own personal question solved. I seek an answer to solve the problem, the question and the inquiry. If I can't solve the puzzle, and find the missing pieces, I could never forgive myself, for not trying my best in order to find the truth behind every story.

The question is, "Lou, what's the point?"

HAHAHA, not the typical commonplace that everyone can think of, for instance the LOU program held in great hall during our first day of entries. Nope

LOU stands for, "Loved, OR Used?"

And I remain this question silent, just to make sure that the puzzle is to be solved by those who truly understand what I am writting about.

A new blog is born

Hey guys, I had just created a new blog for my new ideas.

www.kiradaily.wordpress.com (can't insert link now)

What is this blog meant for? Definitely not for me emo-ing. It will act as another mirror to reflect my life daily optimistically and positively in a light-hearted way.

Today is a little bit tired already. However, It was damn fun for me and zhiyu and ang to attack Hobart by asking him lots of interview questions (not like the type that you will encounter in University's interviews, but more towards like questions asked during 'truth or dare')And, trust me, we had discovered lots of juicy secrets about Hobart.

I shall remain quiet and eerie until I have the right mood to blog more about my new lover :P

A small little voice from Shah Alam

My heart is aching, and my feeling is disturbed, distorted, disorientated. It could be the same feeling like how the other Malaysians feels now.

I am just a small little boy, talking issues like these might get my scholarship jeopardized. I am a Christian, but that isn't the reason why I felt sad when 3 churches were burnt down amid the conflicts over "Allah". I am disappointed because Malaysian acts way too childish regarding sensitive issues after 52 years of independence.

When those 3 churches were burnt down, what was I doing?

I WAS HAVING A VERY HAPPY CONVERSATION WITH Pn Liza, my ethics and moral lecturer who is going to teach me about ethics, and I was with her because I would like to know more about ethics and akhlak in different religious view. She is an Islam, and I am a Christian. She is a lecturer, and I am a student.

Indeed, I am very grateful as she explained to me how to look into ethics and differentiate between good and evil in Islamic views. I am really interested in ethics and philosophy as a single topic can be viewed in a multitude of perspective.

She didn't burn me down or chase me away when I mentioned that I am a Christian. In fact, we started discussing about how Protestant and Roman Catholic formed at the very beginning after cruxifition of Jesus Christ. We shared idea about our own religions view regarding these and that for 1 hour and 10 minute. It is a very short period of mine, but it means a lot to my way of thinking.

The underlying conclusion is that We don't really know much about our neighbour religions. We share a lot of things in common, but a little bit of difference can crumble our harmonious relationship. Both of the religions teach us to have peace with each others, but we end up having war and resentment against each others.

Then we started to discuss about our view on ethics. Actually we learnt something from each others. Both of us act like an insight in our religions so that we can be inspiration towards each others. Pn Liza actually said "thanks you, I had learnt something new from new today, why I didn't think about that before." She was talking about how to differentiate between a good muslim and a bad muslim by some of their activities like Hajj and zakat and solat. What I learnt from her is actually the reason why some of the Muslim they refuse to accept "allah' to be used among Christians who speak in Malay. The Holy Bible never mentions about "Allah" but to Muslim, "Allah" appears in Quran for more than thousands time! They can't be blamed as, to me, "Allah" is a really important and precious word.

However, "Allah" by definition is only an Arabic word for "God". Linguistically, "Allah" is a very unique word different from English word "God" because "Allah" cannot be defined in sex while "God" might lead to confusion as there is an ambiguity to define "God". "Allah", as an Arabic word, can truly explain the characteristics and attribution of "God" or "Tuhan". Therefore, some of the Christian in Egypt and Middle East Countries use "Allah" instead of "God" .

This leads to the fundamental question, "why do Christians in Malaysia insist on using 'Allah'?" Since 'Allah' is just an Arabic word, and Malay native speaker don't really use Arabic words like "Allah" to represent God, but "Tuhan" to represent Him.

Muslims in Malaysia, on the other hand, worry that the use of "Allah" in Christian will lead to confusion among muslims and thus lead to their conviction to Christianity.

I am here not to judge who is right, who is wrong, but to tell you, these controversial should not be the factor that disintegrates our harmony. A teacher and a student can discuss such a sensitive issue in an open-minded way harmoniously, why not for those other erudite scholars in religions?

No matter who is behind all these, I am proud to say that, the next generation of Malaysia like me will not allow such havoc to happen in Malaysia. Sometimes when your thoughts are provoked and irritated by these sensitive issues, think of the light-hearted conversation between two young souls discussing about religions and ethics. Listen to the little voice for peace and harmony from that pedestrian room, in a mundane school. :)

They can have peace, why you can't?

Wildeest Party ever

first of all, congratulation to my dear roommate, Ian who just celebrate his 19 years old birthday party with all of us. there are more than 10 of us, those from Lawrence room (whose room had helped us in hiding the birthday cake)and some other who haven't sleep, (I guess).

As a Mix Malay, he looks more like a chinese to me (in fact it is to every body.) I was shocked the first day I met him, having such an open-minded malay staying with us under the same roof. he has a lot of fans, including one of my roommates who like to molest him sexually (and explicitly?) it does make our room fun.

As our activities on this particular wild party night are very sensitive, I shall not expose much. All I can say is we were screaming and shouting like we are watching 2 porn star having a strip show in front of us! Diane was on the line watching us gone wild in the room. (No alcohol though, we weren't until that level yet). It ended with Pn Jamiliah coming up to my room in an angry face reprimanding us.

It was quite a narrow escape though as she didnt see the wild things we had done together, if not we all will end up in big trouble :P

everything turns up to be quite ok as pn Jamiliah is quite a nice lecturer. She gave us some "silence advice" and allowed us to continue our joyous celebration in condition that we remained our voice low. I was like, "OMG, is this my turn getting a saman or a electric cut down because of noise-making party?"

I volunteered myself as the pianist that night but I failed everyone as I was really blurred and nervous when the cake showed up. At least I learnt how to face my inner-anxiety.

All I can say is this party is so wild that we can't even take any photo or video. It remains as one of my most memorable experience with my friends and roommates.

And, I am not sure what will happen to me and my memories when I was allocated in A level Medicine when I choose medicine at the first place. I wont get a bunch of friends constitute of a variety of backgrounds, races, cultures, classes and characteristics.

Ya, They Are the Best! ADFP is the Best!

Some New things in 2010 for kira :P

Here is a list of things that I really like to share with you guys :P

I want to change, and still be the quirky me. I don't want to change my eating style, my sitting pose, my sleeping motion or so just to fit in, but I want to change in order to avoid those 2009 cliche and glitches that happened on me. Damn miserable incidents! Although they seem to be minor and harmless, they are one of my greatest cancer-causing agents!

a frisbee taken from life game, so what is it exactly? :P

Yup, the 1st damn glitch is LACK OF SPORTS! Spending too much time watching anime until I lacked some sort of exercise, like running or playing around. I gained 3 kg again after my Intec journey began. (damn it) Now, with latest technology (in sarawak :) ) I must get slimmer this spring semester. They say spring season is the most hectic season for ADFP students. Let's see how impactful it will do to me :P

Ok ><>

It is, not about the books around indeed, but the arrangement of the books. The table used to be so disorganized and messy until Pn Jamiliah had given me a warning. I can't even find my own SAT examination slip 6 hours before the real SAT examination in Subang. It cost me to squander 1 hour just to hunt down my slip beneath the sea of books, technological stuff and so on. Now, my table will be clean and tidy with aromatic flavor around it (haha) and some forbidden stuff being hidden around.

genetics, calculus and whatsoever. What's happening to your life? I thought you despise books as they are not environmental-friendly?

Books do make a genius from nothing. If I lived in a house so glamorous like nat's, I can probably become a genius too. I had been exposed to different field of science and interest which truly intrigue my learning enthusiasm. I want to know more about biological stuff in depth. No more time will never be my excuse to avoid reading informatics books. * unless it is damn soporific.

A photo taken in your house back in your hometown, Sibu in Sarawak? Nice job, too bad we need something more than just that mundane.

Nope, that photo was not taken in my own house back in my hometown, Sibu, but it is taken in my room, Kolej Cendana. yup, I had just bought myself a Yamaha Piano for my own pleasure. I want to revive my old dream, and it is never too old for you to jump over and get into admitted by Brown. Piano will be my new leisure activity that I can play with this arriving semester.

There are a lot more new things that have been going through me, like doing new account system to control his own budget, having my class in Austin but not the Austin that I understand.

Hope that my new year resolution can be wished

2010 :P

After KJ's comment, I decided to write something happy about my life.

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Can't think of anything. :P, I guess my idea flows only when I am in great tension, or depression, or great supression.

(I didn't want to make my blog into a diary though, haha. what is the point to keep mentioning whom you go out with for lunch? unless it stands for some significance. )

These few days I was rushing for my application, and I shouldn't get into much details as they do have technology to find out about me :P

After this process, I truly learn what "there is always people who are greater than you" means. I came to know this noel who is a real physics genius that has true passion in both music and physics (especially in quantum physics), Victor, my roommate, a quirky Einstein-worshiper, and I am currently following his study habit :P (He would have never know that I am now assimilating him), YL, a homosexual who scores higher than hobart, Ching Yee who favors in chemical engineering yet takes biology. There are a lot of cool people that I had come to know, and I truly feel that 5s4 is a small village indeed.

What we have been acting in the class, is just stupid, immature and arrogant, living in our own world without realizing that there are a lot of people who want to make a big difference. They are the real geniuses, the real pioneers in future. I am fully impressed by them.

I guess that is what makes US different from the other educational curriculum. :p

There is the Malay who has this wonderful ideas about travelling and mind stones. There is the experiment psycho tk who dressed up like a girl just to understand how a girl thinks. A reincarnated kite by HL, miss that 一生不幸， miss those engineers. They really prove to me that engineers are a bunch of cool kids who know what is life.

I too want to be more like them. That's the very least that I learnt in my application. I am still too mediocre and mundane and pedestrian. I have been living in my own, small little world for such a long time. I had been wasting so much money just to fulfill my lust and needs :p

2010 is a new start for me, and I anticipate a new me who had just turned over a new leaf. Everyday I promised myself that I will learn more about genetics and microbiology even though they are not in my exam syllabus. I will polish up my piano skill and redefine myself as a true artist. I will utilize my gifted talent in doing more goods, to glorify his name as a Christian. Doing more exercise, playing futsal.

Last but not least, I am grateful to my tutor, Nat(although he is sarcastic and harsh towards our essays, he is such a talented genius) for bringing me to a new level of thinking and new perspective of insight towards this world.

2010 stands another meaning to me to, that's my SAT 1 mediocre score (2nd attempt) I found that I do have a gift in mathematics (especially I score 800 in maths 2 which I did none for the preparation since it is a last-minute decision :P) I will work hard in my maths, not blaming anyone again for my failure. This is my greatest resolution, version 2010, and I WILL ACHIEVE IT! I HAVE TO!!! !!!

For sure, I hope for the best to my classmates in 5s4 2008, 0903pm10 and old denver 2009. All the best!