My dream

What are your dreams and aspiration?

I want to have my own social enterprise which involves in Biological research. I want to commercialize Pokemon in order to realize my childhood dreams. I want to make cheap foods and natural resources abundant and accessible everywhere in this world. I want to have my own school tutoring others in education. I want to become a professor involving biologics research since I was young. I want to have my own time for my family, my future wife and kids. The list are endless, and I am working on my dreams in order to realize them within my limited time.

Since I was young, I was easily intrigued by life. I kept asking why the bird can fly, how the dog barks, can ants swim, or what happen to my food after i ate them. I prefer observing animals and plants to man-made machine. I discovered that when I found myself keep looking and staring at my pet dogs while I was having fun playing my remote car.

The interest got deeper and deeper when my mother bought me books about animals and plants like, "100 questions about animals and plants" and "The natural wonders of the world". My mother wanted me to become a doctor, that's why she wanted to instill a medical interest onto me. Well, I guessed it didn't turn out to be like that.

My mother also wants me to become a logic doctor who knows how to play musical instruments. My childhood was filled with papers, books, Lego and light musical instrument like flute and portable piano. However, I just missed my trees and dogs. When I get the papers I began to draw out trees and I used lego to build my own zoos.

Even though I am born in a middle-earn family who lives in the center of a town, my mother likes to bring me back to her hometown which is a village in Kuching. It becomes part of my rich memories as I got the chance to catch the chickens, feed the fish in the pond and plant my own vegetables as well as flowers. While I was flying my kite, I imagined I was actually flying my own pet eagle. (That is the time when I am not a rich guy but a poor peasant boy rich in life and memories)

I finally found my great interest in Biology when I am in Form 4. The moment when I studied the fundamentals of biochemistry like saccharides, amino acids or nucleic acids, i was intrigued. It was just amazing when I get to know how these plant or these human systems get to work without even our notice. There was one time when I found ambiguous part about photosynthesis, I went and found Yong Wai Yng to discuss about the topic. It seemed that I kept asking her question too deep until we both got confused. That is a wild experience, I supposed.

During my extra class by Pn. Su, I get to know more about Biology and life. Biotechnology is a new term for me at that time, and I can feel that there is a great potential that I can discover in this field. My mother used to tell me that if I can produce my own medicine, then my grandmother can have a better health care. However, due to the poor condition of my mother's family, my grandmother suffers poor medication and died in excessive dehydration and osteoporosis.

I witness how my mother's family suffers for the last 3 years of my grandmother's life trying to earn a living while afford her medication. Yet, I see the ironic moment when my father's uncle get the chance to have his cardio-operation in Singapore that is worth a million!

I believe, biotechnology is the field that provide a pathway to realize my dreams. In addition, it is my family that plays a vital role in shaping my dream and my school that helps me finding the pathway to realize my childhood dreams as well as my young adulthood dreams.

Kira PERSONAL quality

I know from the start of the beginning, I have this quality of manipulating others words, distorting their true meaning and beating around the bush to make people confuse about what they are talking. I confess, this isn't something pleasant during a normal conversation. Sometimes, I have been regard as jerk or hooligan who likes to make fun of them. I have lost lots of friendship because of this ability.

However, I am proud of this quality.

I am remorse that I have been using this talent for such a long time yet I didn't realize how much potential it can be. Since young, I have been using this quality to avoid being punished by my mother, twist others' meaning in order to win over dispute that I am in, and last but not least, conquer the opposition during a debate competition.

Over the years, I had seen how others get upset by my characters whenever we were in disagreements. As I kept using my skills, I discovered that I can actually force others to jump into conclusion that they refuse to accept. I can make a very good comparison between two irrelevant issue. I can exaggerate an issue into something catastrophic and dramatic. I can also force their stands to disintegrate with their own rules and principles. Furthermore, it occurs randomly and spontaneously. I can break and reconcile the link between two logic of conversation in any time. I regard this collapse of link between human's logic as a flaw, a human fallacy called double standard, and I am proud of myself that I can sense it and tear it apart fleshy and mercilessly in front of anyone.

Winning in a conversation gives me instance gratifications that are indescribable.

Finally, I got burnt by playing the fire. One of my best friend got really annoyed and vowed never to talk with me anymore. It was all because I had distorted his characters during his conversation with his friends by implying that he loved boys. I was miserable about the incident. While trying to reconcile our relationship, I kept reading books on conversation and charismatic skills. When I went through one Chinese Idiom which is "Silence is Gold", I disagreed totally with it. I was thinking,

What would this world become if we do not stand out and speak out the unspeakable for the others? If we do not speak out when we sense inequalities and errors or prejudice just because we are under the authorities, what will we become?

I need this talent. With this talent, I can think deeply in different perspective from the others. This can help making an idea flawless as we think and work it out together in different directions. This talent makes an idea to be complete, a person to be neutral without any biased, and a system to work as a whole.

I have come into realization that I have the ability to let my creativity runs wild, that's why I can think differently from the others and distort their meaning. I started to turn this "misplaced talent" into skills that every one will appreciate it. A critical thinking ability with creativity running wild in my minds without letting it overflown and hurt the others.

I name this talent as divergent and convergent thinking ability, and I am still learning to fully utilize it.

I am who i am- INTEc life

This blog is dedicated to those taylorians, my friends who had just finished their AS examination. I am not sure whether they still remember me as their ex-class rep who, sometimes cute and irresistible, was once shouting to them before their math quiz, asking wth chemistry question in the class, arguing thinking skill with Miss Esther in a rather debate style and bombarding the presenters with lofty questions during biology class. That is quite the life as an A-level student in Taylors'. Until now, i still can't forget the sheer fun, experience and knowledge i gained there that help me a lot in my INTEC life. Without the memories, i can't survive as one of the scholars here.

Shopping with Yong Teng is fun, because I can shout to him whenever he is in an indecisive mood. I get the chance to visit all those branded clothes, and i slimmed down because i wanted to wear those branded clothes!

i forgot why i took this photo with her, but it should be after a shopping trip, perhaps

Teaching her maths is one of the greatest challenge that i had ever had. Yen Li should be ok with her maths now after getting a good tutoring from the other students. Haizzz... ... I am not good enough to tutor you.

Doing CHEMISTRY experiments is one of my worst nightmare! We need to struggle and rush everything in 2 hours. Imagine that we need to do 20 experiments in just 2 hours! Faint! Until now, I still haven't the titration method correct... ... (need to reconsider whether i am qualified to become a researcher)

There are other moments which captivate my emotion. For instance, observing mitotic division under the microscope, giving presentation in the lecture theater, Award Giving Ceremony which i met Mark Tiew, and so on. Studying Biology has becoming my greatest interest since my form 4 life. I know that Biology has a lot of stuff to memorize, so as physics and chemistry. I don't think BIology is just mere memorization, it involves lots of calculation which we need to master the fundamentals deeply and broadly before we can really do any calculation. It involves lots of factors which we can't neglect or ignore it even in an elementary level, unlike physics.

Sushi and Biology, these are things that i indulged in since i was young.

I love Biology, especially molecular biology. If we can create an industry which manufacture every thing with life as building blocks, think of the vast possibilities that we can envision!

That's why i choose Biotechnology in JPA scholarship, as well as Bank Negara Scholarship, and i ignore every other choice that does not involve in Biotechnology.

God gave me two choices. JPA, or Taylors. I was frustrated when my father didn't allow me to choose what i really want in my education. An education in UK. I think the UK application is easier than US application. I generalize that all JPA scholars are lazy and unproductive as they all take JPA scholarship as granted. I believe that JPA limits my choice for the worst!

i was in a big dilemma, and it was difficult for me to extricate myself from the predicament.

However, it proves that I am wrong after all. God will always guide my journey, sometimes I just don't realize that it is all His work and miracles for me to survive until now.

This is Intec. I took this photo next to my class.

I gain a new perspective when i first arrive at InTec, a school where most scholars are gathered. I got the chance to become well-known among my batch when i asked questions to JPA during the Minggu Mesra Sxxxxx (whatsoever la, just an orientation week) I got the chance to perform as Mr. Evil at the last night of orientation week. And so, Akira has his image in INTEC, thus embarking his new life in INTEC.

The new experience which i had never experienced before is the roommate experience. Zhi Yu, a quiet and diligent boy becomes my roommate, and he is quite ambitious as well. I like him because he is my walking alarm clock! Thanks him a lot! There is Ang, the first person who knows that I am 16A1 in INTEc, thanks to my bragging father. He really gives lots of fun to my room. His innocent and weird gayish attitude makes my room roaming with laughters and commotion. I am lucky that the banana incident wasn't happening on me, or my room. LOLZ. BTW, banana incident is confidential, so i am not allowed to expose too much.

On the right is Zhiyu, my roomate, and the boy next to him is my room's permanent resident, tiankang, an Asean scholar who doesn't talk much. Both of them are like genius.

Ang always pretends to be gayish and annoying, which makes the atmosphere full of joy.

There is Ian, Suresh, and Rohan. Ian is the Malay- Chinese boy who became the Michael Jackson in InPro Dance. He is funny and extraordinary. Even though he is a Malay, he is beyond my imagination, and he has broken my conventional view about Muslims. (Not go for praying, pointing middle fingers and so on) He is nice, by the way, and I like his "Oh My God" pronunciation. Suresh, i haven't had any deep description about him, but he is always in a very serious mood. He is like the big brother in my room, commanding here and there. There is Rohan, my closest, gregarious Indian friend who likes to talk and laugh around. A stylish vegetarian with big dreams and aspiration as well.

Rohan and Rachel, the girl who Rohan had a crush on, but it becomes history as Rohan met Abrigril.

My room is damn complicated, with so many races and friends around. I like the atmosphere, especially when all those Permanent Residents keep coming into our room. I like this type of diversity. Even though we don't really look as close as the other room's guys, but in our heart, we are close like everything. We ALWAYS go for the bus together as a whole! EVERYDAY!

Inpro dancers- Rohan, Suresh, Ian, and me. Raymond is also my room's permanent visitor. And Diane, Ian's girlfriend, my competitor for the election.

All of my roomates involved on that particular night, either as dancers or marchers. Basically they are all dancers, I can't really see the difference between marching and performance.

I admire those who can play guitar well. Jealous, haha!

This photo was taken before Language Awareness Night, which most of my roomates came and join in the acappella for the performance. Suresh was the beat- boxer

In my roommates' mind, they think AKira as a weird, sohai 16A1 who likes watching ONEPIECE and anime, likes to study with books yet knows how to balance his life by playing lots of games and fooling around everywhere, and likes to watch porn and talk about dirty jokes that makes me like a sex-maniac. Same goes with my lecturers.

I meet these new lecturers that make my INTEC life a lot more fun! MR Kamal, a teacher who i don't know how to articulate verbally. He always likes pulling my leg about my herbalife, but i know that he has a caring side that few lecturers possess. I think he is a very good lecturer, in the sense that he likes to talk some issues that we scholars don't really like to talk about- Sex.

Because of Mr K, I dressed like Lady Gaga giving presentations and dancing in front of the class. That was awesome, so many "positive" feedbacks about the dance. I look gorgeous, don't I?

Miss Nadiah, our class most favorite lecturers, likes to take photos as her memories. Most of our class photos are taken with her. She is pretty, by the way! Hope to take the coming lectures with her.

i specially like this photo taken before our mid-sem break, because I was hugged by Lawrence. can't believe it, right? I also don't know why he hugged me while I was holding my essay papers.

Miss Nadiah and I on the Last Lecture by Miss Nadiah, and I was late! Sorry for that.... ... Pn Arfah was a little bit "over-talking" with me until i was late?

These are all the boys from my class! Look at that 16A1 (the boy who sat in the front with light purple t-shirt), i think he looked like a hamster in this photo.

Because of these friends in my class, i get to do many new things together with them. They are all very supportive for me. I don't know how they think about me, but I try my best not to be a jerk as i used to be. At least in US education system, we are not going to turn our examination hall into a battle field. We are not fighting for top one, we are fighting for our best!

Lawrence is presenting something in MR K's class. Monkey D. lawrence... ... ... ...

No more his weird laughs in the class for the next two sems lo... ...

Ice-skating is one of my most memorable experience in Intec life- the difference is there were 10 of us who went ice-skating. One of my most contradicting sport as I can sweat in such a cold ring!

They said that ADFP is the best program in INTEC, I don't think it is because the syllabus is much more shorter than A Level or Ausmat. I think it is because of the spirit shared by ADFpians who really know how to fight for the best rather than just compete with each others. We work together for the best as a whole!

I involve in the election campaign, although the post doesn't turn up to be me, i am more than happy to get involved in. These new experiences are things that Kira likes.

Eating expensive Sushi sets is one of my favorite pastime activity. Even though Jerald and I were having our toefl, we looked like foreigners sightseeing around the examination hall.

As a resident in Klang, Ang brought us visiting his hometown. We end up eating so much Ba Ku Tei and expensive beef and chicken chop!

All these BaKu Tei were sponsored by Ang, my roommate, thanks!

Finally, our class plan to go visit penang during our holiday. These 3 SIBULang: Andrew, Lawrence and I are going to visit Penang before MY SAT2 examination! Along with my roomate Ang and their roomate Jerald, we follow the girls in my class sightseeing in Penang. Many fun and unpleasant things happen among us. We fight, and we reconcile and become friends again. Accidents keep happening on us, but thanks God, we manage to overcome every obstacles that comes along this journey.

Alex, as well as Andrew's church sister Summer, was our tour guide.

We are having a strenuous journey in 极乐寺。

I was wearing a giant shorts on that day. We ended up looking like this in the Red Box karaoke and Gurney Shopping Mall. I thought we were going to the beach enjoying sunshine.

I took this photo while i was studying my SAT chemistry! We are in Penang Komtar.

Fun and the other 2 sibu lang who are in the same class with me.

Rumors about fun and me are spreading everywhere... ... I am innocent ah... ...

the girl that i like is... ... u guess

This is not just the end of the story! There are still trips for these 3 Sibu lang after the Penang Trip- The KL trip. Sungai Wang, Berjaya Times Square, and much more!

we were in Pavillion, and i was wearing a green contact lens. LOLZ

Six of us, and one is missing, I think is Ang, he hadn't come yet the day we took this photo.

How about my church life? it was fine. Although i still missed Methodist church in Subang Jaya, I learnt how to enjoy the variety of church life in Shah Alam. Weekly prayer meeting, cell group and also, Campus ALIVE! It is fun to watch different church brothers and sisters gather together as a whole worship our God. Every Campus Alive really does make me feel alive and rejuvenated again. I meet Larry there. He is Hwa's senior, the only senior who knows my tragic past.

Besides, I had joined church activities with all my friends here. I am surprised by the church activities in Shah Alam as all we know, Shah Alam is a place for Muslims to meditate and pray.

The Mooncake Festival Night, Lawrence, David, (another boy who i forgot his name) and I went to the gathering held by Uncle Huang.

Lawrence and I were the choir on one of the church service. Can't forget it because I was wearing Savier's white clothes.

New fashion design for Kira, don't you feel bored of doing everything in the same way?

I like to pop up new ideas and try them out!

Dress like Harry Potter is always my childhood dream, and i hope one day i can become a wizard and create magical creatures.

One of the most academic part that i had in Intec life is Nat's US application workshop. Despite the class has only four of us, we were actually having lots of fun! I get the chance to shoot and bombard Hobart's essays and so on. I can never forget that I made fun of him by saying that he has NO imagination at all.

Hobart and Tian Kang were eating while waiting for the class to start.

Then what am I going to do now to fully enjoy this journey? I had embark my adventure and I am not going to complete it unless I died in an accident climbing Mount Everest! Now, I had taken the challenge by applying myself to the ivy leagues. I know I can do it.

never be afraid to try something new because life gets boring when you stay within the limits of what you already know

the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams,

and i am the dreamer who believes in.

And, compete yourself and win the world

Four months do change a lot of things... ... I am who I am, and I will change for a better tomorrow!

2012

it is undeniable that 2012 is one of the best blockbuster movie in 2009! A movie inspired by Mayan prophecy about doomsday, 2012 definitely attracts a vast amount of audience! Spectacular special movie effects are splendid, with all those blasting and crashing scenes bursting throughout the whole movie. Tsunami, volcano eruptions, earthquakes and the other catastrophic disasters are beyond our imagination. It looks like the doomsday is really near, or is it?

I watched the movie in Sibu, and it is like a miracle for a Sibu theater filled with people, especially when the movie is played for 12 times in one day, before SPM! I meant it! Even though down the theater the pirated cds of 2012 are overflown, the theater is still full with people. From this we can see the great attraction of this movie! Everyone is like "Woa", stunned and "hahaha" (cause there are some funny scenes which i cant stop laughing, even though it is supposed to be a movie about disaster!)

That is the issue that i want to bring in, we treat it as another movie like Harry Potter without even realize that this could one day be all true! Every thing is like so fantastic and extravagant until we regard it as something like a fantasy rather than a revelation. What if the land breaks apart in the cinema right at the moment we watch it happen in the movie? What if earthquakes happen at the climax of the movie? What will we do? The problem is we are not taking it seriously. We do not prepare ourselves- we are unprepared to face such a devastating disaster.

What if we know there is a doomsday in the near future? What will we do? Will we act heroic like what the main characters do in the movie? Some of us will, some of us wont! Simple scenes from the real life can portray how human will act when they face the doomsday! The day when Sibu's boat sank and tens of people died, people around the scene rushed quickly just to take away the casualties' properties that the emergencies had found beneath the sea bed. When the great flood and hurricane struck US, raping cases and robberies kept happening in the stadium which acts as a temporary stronghold for the citizens whose residential area were struck by flood. During China's earthquake, some burglars were sneaking into the safety zone, pretending themselves to be first aiders, and stole away all the necessities. Robberies were everywhere; the robbers are holding weapons like parang and guns trying to creating havoc.

This is why the US government in the movie forbids the secret to be revealed. They don't want to create havoc or unnecessary anxiety among the citizens. "The economy will break apart! Riots will be everywhere... ..." This is what the movie lacks of- the true nature of human beings. When real disaster is around, they will first think about themselves. Raping cases increase because those people have a conception that "I haven't have sex yet, since i am going to die, why not just find a girl and fuck her off! it doesn't look like i am going to get caught by the police,be judged or something! Come on, its doomsday!" This, is the real world today! Not everyone believes in judgement day after the doomsday. Society will disintegrate if scientists prove 2012 to be true.

However, the movie conveys another message which is hope! What is hope exactly? "What is the chance for an ordinary man like the author of a only-500-copied-sold book to get into the ship?" The greatest hope is held by every people. The believers in Italy pray because they hold on hopes which is stated in the bible. The muslims also pray because they have faith in their religions. However, those non-believers, they do not have hope to hold on. Their faith lie within themselves, and that is tough! In order for you to have faith in yourself during doomsday, you need to possess some sorts of super powers or God-like power for you to survive! (And seriously, the plot in 2012 is way too coincident! Everything is like well-planned! In real life, it is not) No matter what, we need to always be optimistic and hold on what we believe in. There is always light of hope in our life.

There is the family touching part, about what we need to do to our precious one before everything is too late. It is like a cliche to me, but it is still important. We do not want to have a sense of regret after something regretting happens in our life? Like we can never have the chance to talk to somebody, or hear his or her voice. Appreciate what we have now, especially our family. They are gifted, as we can't really choose who is our family member. Say i love u to those you love, before everything is too late. Yes, when you think that "we could have more time", but in real life, you don't really have much left.

And that is the fun part of the movie- the struggle between light and darkness within human nature. Human, undeniably, is the most complicated living beings in Earth. It is human nature to love somebody, but it is also a human nature to be selfish. The love and hope represent light, while the selfishness represents darkness. Every selfish side can be observed through every characters portrayed in the movie, including president of the US (Barack Obama in 2012?) and even the chinese engineer in the movie. (Don't want to expose too much, copyright issue)

What will you do when doomsday arrives the next day? Will you let the darkness of your heart overwhelming your good nature? Or you will be inspired and let the light shines over your heart despite that you are deep in the darkest abyss?

2012, we really need to think what role we play, now and in the future.

random

it has been 2 weeks for me not doing anything related to website. Haizzz zzz. not feeling the right mood to do online, whether is facebook or msn or even blog. i just dun feel the right mood to do stuff. you can say it is the holiday mood that deteriorate my life. This is the time i should use it wisely, but i think the holiday mood spoils it.

haha. I think i deserve some holiday after a tired semester pushing myself to my own limit. I never used to be so tired in my English. Seriously! It is tired to improve your english in such a short time. And yet, i didnt do any improvement in my english. Haizzz zzz. Frequent usage of Mandarin ends my dream, and i need to get a new revitalization in my life.

A new revitalization in my life, huh? Then what should i do?

I have two months of doing this- a new change in my life. Since my trip to Penang and KL, i want to make new discoveries in my life. Don't ask me why, but i feel like i want to do something that make me more than just me. I want to be more than just ordinary. Now i have seen the world, and this is the time i need to make a new jump in my life, in 2 weeks.

It is ok if i don't get admitted in ivies, but it is always worth a try, at least a very basic try. I could get a chance, even though it is relatively small.

When the others are busy in their recommendation letters and essays, i am actually practicing my piano, reading more books and magazines while playing more wii games i have been longing to.

My grammar is still weak. 4 months didnt play any major change in my language, did they?

I am now in love with the theme song of Detective Conan- Magic. Damn nice! I don't know why but i can get the feeling from this song, same as to Glory and Sha lala.

Everyone! Have a nice holiday! I hope that i get the same chance as you guys in terms of enjoying a holiday long anticipated.